In the shower this morning (a place where I often find inspiration - I am sure it is all the additional oxygen) I began thinking of all the positive and negative aspects of Covid 19 and the lock-down. I started to create a list in my mind of what I have loved about lock-down and some of its negative aspects.
Lock-down pushed me to create this website (well my clever sister has created it but you know what I mean) and to be brave enough to put what I create out into the public arena. If you don’t like it –that is OK by me.
I got to spend over a month with my mother who stayed with us during level 4, in her own space, at a cottage on our farm with her cat and companion Cynthia. I had always yearned for mum to visit us here on the farm a little more often, to see where we lived and to spend more time with my beautiful tamariki/children so she too could see what amazing adults they have become. I have learnt during this time that our dreams and expectations of others are simply that and no matter what I want it is unrealistic of me to expect these to be lived up too nor can I change someone's outlook. That my family is amazing and that is enough.
I learnt that I love to cook for my family – especially when I have meals planned, prepared and when I have allowed enough time to enjoy the creative process of cooking. I have eaten well and released some weight and I would like to think that I will carry on with this mindful eating practise post lockdown, along with the meal planning.
Shopping has taken on a completely new life. It is now about what we need (thank you meal planning) and an end to quick fix, mindless shopping which filled a void that would scream out loudly when I previously shopped - almost manically. But don't get me wrong, I do love the multiple highs that online shopping gives me. I look at a website; I place a product into my shopping cart; I remove said product from my shopping cart; said product or a different version re-enters my shopping cart and I eventually purchase; I wait in anticipation for it's arrival in the mail; the joy and excitement of said product finally arriving (we live rurally so it can take a while) and opening it for full appreciation.
I love the slower pace my life has taken on. Our nearest city, well I think it is still a city is over 70 km away, so I normally spend a lot of dead time driving in the car. I do not miss the frantic pace of my previous life and in looking back I can see which direction I want to take moving forward. Lockdown has been a time of evaluation, rest and healing for me.
I miss my friends. I miss laughing and drinking with my friends. I am blessed to have amazing friend groups. The Crew. Our Art Group. Our Dinner Group.
I don’t like how much time I have spent mindlessly scrolling through Facebook and Instagram but I do love the app Mindpal and how I may have become a little bit smarter during this lock-down according to it in “my progress” and how I compare to others of the same age. My memory still needs a bit of work though. I will try and remember to practice more of those games.
I don’t like that because of all the screen time how my eyes have deteriorated and how they do not focus so well when I now look up from my aforementioned screen.
I love that I have caught up with multiple episodes of Ru Pauls Drag Race and have some new favourite drag queens. I love that I have rediscovered Trinny Woodhall from Trinny & Suzanne days and "What not to Wear". Trinny's passion for clothing and easy makeup is simply delicious and she has inspired me to really think about my style and what I love.
To finish I had to share this incredible poem by Tom Roberts. It talks of changes in the world and us because of Covid 19.
Take care, do what you love and love what you do and in the words of Ru Paul if you can’t love yourself, how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else xxx
The Great Realisation, by Tom Roberts
''Tell me the one about the virus again, then I'll go to bed.
'But my boy, you're growing weary, sleepy thoughts about your head.
'Please! That one's my favourite. I promise just once more.
'Okay, snuggle down my boy, though I know you know full well
The story starts before then, in a world I once would dwell
'It was a world of waste and wonder, of poverty and plenty
Back before we understood why hindsight's 2020
'You see the people came up with companies to trade across all lands.
But they swelled and got much bigger than we ever could have planned
'We'd always had our wants, but now it got so quick.
You could have anything you dreamed of in a day and with a click.
'We noticed families had stopped talking. That's not to say they never spoke.
But the meaning must have melted and the work life balance broke.
'And the children's eyes grew squarer and every toddler had a phone.
They filtered out the imperfections but amidst the noise, they felt alone.
'And every day the skies grew thicker, till you couldn't see the stars.
So we flew in planes to find them while down below we filled our cars.
'We'd drive around all day in circles. We'd forgotten how to run.
We swapped the grass for tarmac, shrunk the parks till there were none.
'We filled the sea with plastic because our waste was never capped.
Until each day when you went fishing, you'd pull them out already wrapped.
'And while we drank and smoked and gambled, our leaders taught us why,
It's best to not upset the lobbies, more convenient to die.
'But then in 2020, a new virus came our way.
The governments reacted and told us all to hide away.
'But while we were all hidden, amidst the fear and all the while,
The people dusted off their instincts, they remembered how to smile.
'They started clapping to say thank you, and calling up their mums.
'And while the cars keys gathered dust, they would look forward to their runs.
'And with the skies less full of voyages, the earth began to breathe.
And the beaches brought new wildlife that scuttled off into the seas.
'Some people started dancing, some were singing, some were baking.
We'd grown so used to bad news but some good news was in the making.
'And so when we found the cure and were allowed to go outside,
We all preferred the world we found to the one we'd left behind.
'Old habits became extinct, and they made way for the new.
And every simple act of kindness was now given its due.
'But why did it take a virus to bring the people back together?'
Well, sometimes, you’ve got to get sick, my boy, before you start feeling better.
'Now lie down, and dream of tomorrow, and all the things that we can do.
And who knows, if you dream hard enough, maybe some of them will come true.
'We now call it the Great Realisation, and yes, since then there have been many.
'But that's the story of how it started, and why hindsight's 2020.'
Posted: Thursday 7 May 2020